Blogging right now, cos many things are going through my mind …
today just had my presentation…
my prof was impressed by me … haahaa…
that is all glory to God! I was so nervous!
he said that there is just sth special about me …
hahaaa…
i didn’t tell him the reason behind me being special…
that is because…… i have Jesus living in me!
that is my revelation during my prayer time this morning!
simple word, but always forgotten …
you just got to agree with me! hahaa…
anyway the coming one month is going to be xiong!
i hae 9 more reports
4 more presentations,
3 more exams to go before the sem ends…
and i really have no confidence to do well….
GOD SOS!!!
know what… and recently yes …
when i was busy finishing up my report,
i heard a comment of me being backslidden …
when i told my friend about this …
she was laughing … well …
i was laughing too…
my goodness… i was angry yet also not angry …
well … knowing me…
i am super bo chap girl…
say whatever you want,
as long as i know i am doing it for God and doing my best…
i used not to understand people when they are busy…
but now i do! i sincerely do!
i have lesser and lesser of sleep… and all my strength depend on Him!
well… then i think i was quite insensitive and judgmental in the past..
like people are so tiring and busy,
yet they made an effort to serve,
come service, come cg …
but many times, we just take for granted that they should what…
Repent repent… now i go through it, i understand how they feel…
next time i am going to be more sensitive and loving!
I can’t help but i really am going crazy with reports and more reports …
so…………
solution is blogging here…
hahaha…
but later i will get the effect of blogging and not doing reports in library!
well … in church for almost 8 years,
it is rather surprising that i never really had an eye on anyone in particular…
well … is it me or what?
hai……………
anyway … i wanted to say …
for so long, once again i feel like a princess …
i met up with my sec classmates during one of our classmate’s weddings…
i am up till the age … my goodness… time pass so fast huh!
Throughout the whole dinner
I was sitting with my best buddy in sec school…
i didn’t even had to stretch out my hand,
buddy will just pick all the food and place into my plates…
neither do i have to ask him to do it!
Awww…. i feel totally like a princess!!!
food will just come to be plate,
prawn is automatically peel by him without even asking…
all i need is to wait and eat whatever is in my plates!
whatever i want, i just need to turn and tell him…
well… so not like me right?
but what to do …
i am pamper with such a good buddy!
He is always there to crap and make me laugh…
my classmates comment that i am the only one who can tolerate his lame-ness
but i think i am just so use to it that i totally ignore him at times…
haahaa… seriously i totally enjoy being like a handicapped with my buddy!
and of course totally enjoy being entertain by him!!!!
well … it is really a very “unholy” moment with my sec friends…
but i really enjoy being with them…
they are there to witness those times when i am evil
and when we were all crazy and do all the mischievous stuff together…
we can just be ourselves and not bother with our image…
I love my sec classmates!
i was telling my buddy that i am so nervous seeing them again!
they are very different from others.. and i really feel comfortable with them..
they are those who speaks with language that is filled with @#$%^&
and all the night topics were so lame and unholy which i deter to fill you with the details…
everyone hasn’t change and we still crap a lot a lot!
before i end my blog, share the last joke…
please don’t be stumble by it!
i am still as holy and loving God!
Buddy: (Fully aware i will not say #$%^& cos i am a Christian now) “Hey what is this?”
MC: Please … stop it hor! (Pinch Pinch)
Buddy: eh you know i normally don’t wear a top after i bath… but now i had to do so…
mC: why leh?
Buddy: you lah … pinch me all over, later my mum misunderstood leh …
MC: (Super annoyed) i only pinch your arm hor! That sound so wrong!!!!
Dear ma,
i miss you …
mdm ong, i seriously miss you soooo much…
every time when i feel life is too hard,
when i feel that i cannot breath …
i will think of two person,
Jesus and you .. and i really hope that you are with Him right now …
so i can see you once again in future…
this morning, i woke up thinking about you …
and tears just start flowing in my eyes
after all these years, i guess i still miss you so much…
the nights when you tell me stories after stories,
you pat me to sleep, you scratch my back and telling me you love me …
the times when we will laugh and joke together…
the times when we prepare lunch together, sitting at kitchen chatting…
the times when we feel so painful when you are sick …
the times when you stay up late with me for my exams even when you can’t read or write…
the times when you share big and small things with me …
the times when we hug together every night to sleep …
the times when i throw all your canes away when you buy a new one…
the times when i am so angry with you, for playing majong and not spending time with me …
the times when we will go anywhere and everywhere to hunt for food …
the times we took bus at night to count the lamp shops …
i really miss you so much …
even 9 years had passes, but the pain is so deep and real…
many times, i know i deceive myself again and again …
maybe if i don’t think,
maybe if i get myself so busy,
i will not notice you had left …
i really miss you so much so much …
words can never express how much i miss you …
thank you for leaving so many memories …
thank you for being the best mum, best friend that i could ever have …
and thank you for teaching me so much …
your love, generosity and your uprightness…
all these i learn from you …
one last thing,
i love you mum…
to my dearest God:
recently i am quite confuse … …
oh and … sorry for not updating my blog :(
seriously i think everyone had given up hope on my blog :p
anyway … where was i ???
oh!
recently i am so totally busy …
and of course tired …
the last thing i hope to see is
my phone ringing or
sms coming in,
telling me to do this and that …
and the very very last thing is not having enough sleep …
i am also fully aware that many might think that
i am not after God’s Kingdom or i don’t love God as much…
that is also what i am afraid of …
because i know deep in my heart that i will not be where i am, if not Him.
everyday when i read my bible, when i pray,
one prayer is always:
God please, if this is not your will,
then i want to stop all this now!
i am seriously tired too …
every morning, i woke up to remind myself that i must be discipline …
seriously i am tired of my discipline life …
morning waking up to pray and read my bible,
going to school and be on time,
during lesson, on the ball and try to think deep …
balance everything in life,
tuitions,studies,family
BUT …
the one thing that carries me on…
i know my God is for me … i will be able to continue pressing on…
even if the whole world misunderstand me, God will not …
i want to live my life well,
so even if i don’t share the gospel, at the very least,
i can share with people around me
=a little love that i receive from God=
of course, i hope i am not after what the world is after …
i am confuse too … am i? am i not?
but one thing is for sure,
i love God’s word more and more each day as i read my bible…
and i pray that i will love God more and more …
more passionate and more in love with Him …
and i know, every thing i do, i do it unto God …
i seriously cannot be bother about what others think …
all i know is i depend on Him …
This week is a SUPER tiring week…
given 11 tuitions in total
had a total disgusting pack week in school …
and my anger sort of came back on one of the day …
sorry to my dearest sister who is the closest to me…
well … on one of the day when i was back,
my sister was cleaning the house,
being very tired, i actually stood near the toilet and stare blankly…
i really do want to help out with house work …
SINERCELY I DO!
but i am so exhausted with my day!
everyday i woke up at earliest 5 latest 7, to go school,
and came home at 10-11pm …
my sister was shoving me to “siam” for not helping out …
and i actually flare up my anger …
next week is even more EXICITING!
i had 9 tuitions
one meeting with a company for FYP
another 12-10pm school on monday
2 pager to submit for 2 case studies from Harvard
1 project to complete by this sunday
1 project evaluation by this sat night …
wao …
Sometime i really wonder how life is for Pastor Kong …
must be so tired …
so i am not going to complain that i am tired …
since my super hero is also working so hard!
yup … MC you can do it!
and i seriously think next week i should fast more!
to overcome my flesh and all the tuspy turvey thoughts!
and also to get out of my fleshy nature!
what is your strength in life?
For me?
i guess God had given me the gift of
“unlocking people’s heart”
“hey you know, you are just so sensitive and easy to talk to…”
this is what i hear the most common by far…
people i just know,
people i don’t really know,
people i know long long time …
recently,
i meet my neighbor down stair…
i realize i don’t even know her name,
and she did not either…
but i know her whole family story
and all her siblings’ wedding, she will invite me …
it just so happen that when i see her, she will pour out her sorrows to me…
then one of my group mate too …
i meet her up to take bus,
and she was pouring her heart to me along the journey …
i went to KL once,
meet the receptionist,
and after we talk a while during her night shift,
she also … pour out her heart …
oh well … this happen to me many times …
so i sort of get use to it …
hearing peoples’ trouble…
sometime i can offer some advice,
sometime i can’t …
so i learn to just listen …
and ends with a “don’t think too much k ?”
problems like BGR…
God helps me!!!
i don’t even have a boyfriend before…
but i learn to just share my views upon God’s word…
so … you may ask, who is my sorrow pourer?
ah! i don’t have one …
seriously, i have been so used to keeping things to myself …
not to my leaders, not my friends, not my family …
i just felt that even if i share with you, you can’t solve my problems…
sometime i share, you may not be able to understand,
sometime i share, you may not even be listening,
so … being someone very efficient,
i learn that there is only one that can solve my problems!
i end up taking it to Jesus,
pray over it,
leave it to Him,
forget about it…
Yeah … i am going to finish my bible reading soon!
this time will be the sixth time! i miss it once last year…
and i am grumbling about it till now …
heehee.. hey don’t mind me …
i am always challenging myself in little things to make myself excited!
stupid things that i challenge myself:
coming up with new dishes every week…
lowest amount i can use per day …
highest amount i can save per month…
fastest way i can fold the clothes…
shortest way to the same tuition i go week in week out …
fastest time i can drink a cup of hot tei si…
fastest time i can gobble down my lunch/dinner…
quite LAME right?
but i find great joy in challenging myself in all kinds of things in my routine life…
hahaa… i guess that is why i am always so excited!
